The Addictions

2020 without doubt has been a very challenging year to say the least. With COVID 19 always hanging in the shadows of every corner of my life I now find myself stuck in a corner. Giving up a gym membership and eventually losing all interest in any type of exercise has given way to a man 20 lbs. heavier than he was back in the beginning of the pandemic. Exercise is the key ingredient to stabilization of my blood sugar as I have also noticed those numbers rising. My food choices have also been heading in the same direction as I find myself giving into foods I should not be eating. And then there are the addictions…

I remember myself as a “non drinker” for years. I started drinking again about 15 years ago as I would occasionally drink a beer or two on the weekends. Over this year I find myself drinking every night and sometimes more than a six pack.

I quit smoking back in 2013 and turned to vaping as an alternative. The original plan was to make the switch and slowly ween myself off of nicotine altogether. That hasn’t happened yet as I make it too easy to continue the addiction.

Coffee is another problem as I knock down two cups each morning. It never was a problem before for recently my body has been rejecting it in the form of gut issues. I have always loved to drink a cup of tea and can’t understand why I still have to have those two cups of coffee in the morning.

Most folks would say that these are not major problems as addictions of greater magnitude are swallowing up people, families and communities. But this is not about other’s, this is about me. As with just about any other major decisions I make in life I have learned to allow 30 days of deep thought and planning before diving in. This will bring me closer to New Years Day.

About SimpleLivingOver50

At 53 years old I am starting to realize how life changes both physically and emotionally. I strive for a life of simplicity. I am winning the battle with type II diabetes, created a plan to have all debt paid off in 4 years including the house, taking advantage of every opportunity to live life to it's fullest through adventures in nature, hiking, biking, loving and learning.
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10 Responses to The Addictions

  1. Addictions don’t have a comparison scale. Yours are valid if they affect you negatively! I’m so sorry to hear about your struggles. Maybe there is a tiny glimmer of comfort in knowing you are not alone in your journey.
    I wish you all the best!
    Oh! The coffee.. I almost cried for you! Haha coffee is my vice. Anyways, sometimes when I switch brands for a little (after I start to get the gut issues), they go away. For some reason Foldgers is my go to but it likes to remind me I’m a human once in a while. Haha. #TMI probably. Thank you for sharing though! I needed a reminder I’m not alone today.

  2. gitfitsite says:

    Thank you for sharing your struggles. Aside from the physical isolation of this pandemic, I think many of us are suffering from emotional isolation from family and friends as our philosophical and political differences erode some of our closest relationships. We cope as best we can.

    • Yea, there’s a lot going on. I do believe that the isolation is getting to most folks meanwhile we watch those taking out their aggressions by destroying their own communities. Nobody trusts any of our leaders anymore and many feel that a second civil war is on the brink. Can it get any worse? I suppose many of us really don’t understand what goes on in most places around the world. Police are now categorized as villains and the American Family Unit is the enemy of the State. Sorry, just venting a little on you comment.

  3. What do you think of having detox for the stomach to reduce the coffee addiction n to balance the body’s pH? Some physicians/internists may be able to justify n advise?

    • The problem is the cancer treatment I just went through. Detox for me is getting back to a completely vegan diet. I need to get out of the COVID funk and get back on track. I will find my motivation once again like I always do.

  4. momalotlife says:

    I have frequently checked in with your journey and I feel for you. I have had similar setbacks during this last year, falling back into poor habits and corners of comfort. Helpful friends with links to home exercise, diet hacks…helpful but it’s more about mindset than access. We can only find out own way. Sending you my best energy to find your way back.

    • Thanks, I am a pretty strong person mentally but I do have limits on negativity. As you each one of lives are precious but limiting the social part of life is a violation of what it means to be human.

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