Thursday I went to work without the typical leftovers from the night before for lunch. We had a small dinner the night before and this left me in a situation where I would be going out for lunch. I ended up at the Firehouse Sandwich Shop and ordered a meatball sandwich. As I handed the girl at the counter a 10 dollar bill to pay for a sandwich that cost me $9.50 she had to tug a few times to get it out of the grasp of my fingers.
As flashes of numbers ran through my head of the balance I still owe on our mortgage I found it difficult to allow that money to leave my hands. Each and every time we allow money to flow from us, it is less that we have at the end of the month to contribute to our mission of getting out of debt. I know it’s only a ten dollar bill, but how many of these do we allow to float away.
It’s not only cash though, I find myself doing this when I make a purchase online or use a debit card. I have become very mindful about my spending habits as each day I grow closer to full blown retirement.
One of my greatest fears is lack of security in my golden years. I see it happen to so many around me and I like to believe that while I still have control over my income and outcome I tend to be very frugal.
I have always believed in self responsibility and even the thought of allowing a few dollars to slip away can make me a bit edgy. I have found that it is usually not the big expenses, but the small one’s that we create each day that drive our savings potential down. The cups of coffee, lunch out or the mid day snack. Controlling the small things makes it easier to manage the large ones.
I have also come to terms with and understand that each day that I go to work I am trading my life’s energy for a monetary value. By choosing what I spend money on I am also making the decision as to what I am willing to exchange for my life’s energy. The interest we pay on our debts is money that is just thrown in the fire to burn away and never be seen again. It is the exchange of my life’s energy to be turned over to support the living expenses of a wealthy banker or investor.
Everyone complains about the 1% of the wealthiest of our population but what they don’t understand is that the 1% exist only because we support them. I will make every effort to rid my life of paying any kind of interest and start building my own security blanket that will provide for a safe and secure future.
Too many people feel that they are entitled. Entitled to have a cell phone, or cable TV, to eat out at their favorite restaurants or purchase the next best gadget on the market. They believe that they are entitled to drive a nice car or live in a nice home. But entitled by who? Is it actually worth trading your life’s energy to attain these things? It is you and only you who is at the helm and steering this thing we call life. It took so many years for me to completely figure this out and have made so many mistakes along the way.
The same ten dollars spent on a sandwich is the same ten dollars that could be placed elsewhere that will drive your ship safely into port.
Blood Sugar-83, Weight- 190.6
With both blood sugar and body weight reduced I will follow up this morning with 30 minutes on the treadmill. The seasons are changing slightly as the days are brighter, my appetite is reduced and my energy levels are higher.